Sometimes, life just isn't fair. You can't have it all. Yada, yada, yada...

I've come to another crossroads in my life, where I need to decide what's best for me. Land prices in Florida are ridiculously high, barring the easy ammassment of aforementioned land. We looked at ten acres around our house, and it was listed for more than what we paid for our entire house. And that was cheap.

That being said, my dream has always been to live a life like what I was given growing up. We'd have acreage, I'd stay at home and raise the kids, and my mom would be there with me forever. Well...that's not going to happen. At least, not if I stay in Florida. In Ohio, you can get 5 or 10 acres, and a 2000 square foot house for under $150K. But...my mommy's not in Ohio, and I'd be in the same boat I was in two years ago when I suddenly couldn't take missing her anymore.

*sigh* Then there's the option of Mom moving back to Ohio - but that would still leave my brothers, my younger sister, and my dad down here.

Whatever I choose, I'll be giving up something I want. If I stay down here, chances are I will never have land -or- never be a stay at home mom. Then what happens when my younger brother and sister decide to move out and away from Florida? Then my parents will pass on, my older brother and his family will move back to Indiana, and I'm left in a state I don't particularly care for with none of my family. Then again, my parents could live to 100, my siblings could decide not to fly from the nest, and I could hit the lottery (that I don't play). It seems that's the only way my 'dreams' will come true.

Decisions suck. That is why I generally avoid making them.